对不起。
我要跟我的身体说对不起。
又没把你照顾好，每次只会让你受苦
每次一看看时间到要吃午餐晚餐
我都会想，要不要出去吃…
到后来也没有出去到…
差不多一个礼拜里就会有三四天是没好好吃一顿
我也很不想要这样的
不知道为什么，我就需要人陪我吃
一个人吃就像会死掉酱
宁愿饿死也不肯出去一个人吃
为什么！！我真搞不懂我自己……
我不知道我酱下去会维持多久
这个坏习惯要改！一定要改！: (

Today is the first day of the second semester in my foundation year.
I really hope that I made a progress in making more friends, get more happiness among people and also get along really well with everyone.
I really hope that I one day could able to meet more friends and more worthy close friends to share my secrets with and one last more is my love.
Until now I unable to find my love, I'm already in university and I can't even get along really well with girls.
One of my friends who is a girl said that I was treating all girls the same and not being polite to them.
Am I being rough to all the girls?
Am I being rude to all the girls?
Am I treating impolite to all the girls?
Is it because my family only my father and I are male and 6 more is female?
Or is it just me? Making the blames and reasons to other person..
Now I'm trying to make all the steps not to make any stupid stuffs such as being rough, rude and impolite to all the girls.
Now I'm trying to be a more open-minded person to get to know more people in my life unlike my previous semester which got me really stuck in a horrible situation where I starve myself because I need someone to accompany me to have lunch and dinner.
From now on, I will make every move necessary to prevent myself from starving and to be a better person.

SEMESTER ONE!

现在上了大学，跟中学的人事物都不一样了。
从槟城到马六甲读书，新的环境，新的朋友，新的心情。
在马六甲都是没有靠家人，每样东西都是自己来，不能渴望有人会帮你做这个做那个。
虽然家人不在身边，但还有一群朋友陪我，就算只有那几个，也够了。
可是到了外头，人缘要好，认识的人也要多，酱无论有什么困难也有朋友撑腰。
不是说要利用朋友而是多认识人也对自己好。
还记得 orientation 时，我是如何认识人的吗？
那时我就有一个念头，
那就是来到酱远的地方，自己一个人来到远方，一个朋友也没有。
所以才能敢敢厚着脸皮去参加什么什么舞蹈表演的。
就那时，认识了不少朋友。
可是这样久了，第一个学期结束了，我还是只有那些朋友。
看看我身边的朋友吧，全部不想我一样，大家都有一大群朋友，一起玩，一起走。
而我呢，在房间里一个人对着电脑过一整天，连中午餐都可以不好好吃一餐。
在这样下去不是办法的！
我一定要勇敢，要开朗，不要自卑，不要在对自己过意不去！
这次的学期就这样过去了，下个学期一定会更好的！
不能放弃！
要坚强！

对不起。
我要跟我的身体说对不起。
又没把你照顾好，每次只会让你受苦
每次一看看时间到要吃午餐晚餐
我都会想，要不要出去吃…
到后来也没有出去到…
差不多一个礼拜里就会有三四天是没好好吃一顿
我也很不想要这样的
不知道为什么，我就需要人陪我吃
一个人吃就像会死掉酱
宁愿饿死也不肯出去一个人吃
为什么！！我真搞不懂我自己……
我不知道我酱下去会维持多久
这个坏习惯要改！一定要改！: (

Today is the first day of the second semester in my foundation year.
I really hope that I made a progress in making more friends, get more happiness among people and also get along really well with everyone.
I really hope that I one day could able to meet more friends and more worthy close friends to share my secrets with and one last more is my love.
Until now I unable to find my love, I'm already in university and I can't even get along really well with girls.
One of my friends who is a girl said that I was treating all girls the same and not being polite to them.
Am I being rough to all the girls?
Am I being rude to all the girls?
Am I treating impolite to all the girls?
Is it because my family only my father and I are male and 6 more is female?
Or is it just me? Making the blames and reasons to other person..
Now I'm trying to make all the steps not to make any stupid stuffs such as being rough, rude and impolite to all the girls.
Now I'm trying to be a more open-minded person to get to know more people in my life unlike my previous semester which got me really stuck in a horrible situation where I starve myself because I need someone to accompany me to have lunch and dinner.
From now on, I will make every move necessary to prevent myself from starving and to be a better person.

SEMESTER ONE!

现在上了大学，跟中学的人事物都不一样了。
从槟城到马六甲读书，新的环境，新的朋友，新的心情。
在马六甲都是没有靠家人，每样东西都是自己来，不能渴望有人会帮你做这个做那个。
虽然家人不在身边，但还有一群朋友陪我，就算只有那几个，也够了。
可是到了外头，人缘要好，认识的人也要多，酱无论有什么困难也有朋友撑腰。
不是说要利用朋友而是多认识人也对自己好。
还记得 orientation 时，我是如何认识人的吗？
那时我就有一个念头，
那就是来到酱远的地方，自己一个人来到远方，一个朋友也没有。
所以才能敢敢厚着脸皮去参加什么什么舞蹈表演的。
就那时，认识了不少朋友。
可是这样久了，第一个学期结束了，我还是只有那些朋友。
看看我身边的朋友吧，全部不想我一样，大家都有一大群朋友，一起玩，一起走。
而我呢，在房间里一个人对着电脑过一整天，连中午餐都可以不好好吃一餐。
在这样下去不是办法的！
我一定要勇敢，要开朗，不要自卑，不要在对自己过意不去！
这次的学期就这样过去了，下个学期一定会更好的！
不能放弃！
要坚强！